Saturday, February 28, 2009

When You Can't Help, But Say It

Note: I am not a fan of foul language or cursing or trash talks and as much as possible I don't use them on my blog. (Hey, no offense to those bloggers that are fond of using those words. World peace!) It's just that, I want my site to be remembered as a LaGuardia-friendly este child-friendly site. In short, this site is for the general patronage. hehe. ;)

No matter how refined, religious or well-mannered you are, there are just instances that you can't help it but utter the "stinky" slash "foul" words like...

"Oh! Shit! Whattaf*k!"

Just when you thought it's time to flash your best close-up smile and ...

Just when you are about to grab a bite but you see Mickey in your favorite sandwich...

Just when you thought burrying yourself in the sand would be fun...

Just when you are about to celebrate for reaching the peak of the cliff...

Just when you're about to say "Thank God, the parachute works..."

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Why do I blog?

I never had any interest in writing. In fact, I suck at this field. I know I don't have the talent and I don't have the discipline. My bad! I used to miss my English classes way back in high-school and college. I used to think English is just a "minor" subject, not as important as Biology or Physics. I remember during my elementary years when we had to compose an essay in a formal theme. Argh! Ang ginagawa ko noon, nagpapa-cute ako sa teacher ko at tinatanong ko kung pwedeng assignment na lang. Tapos ipapagawa ko sa ate ko. Pag di naman nag-work yung pagpapa-cute ko eh, pinapagawa ko na lang sa katabi ko yung formal theme. Haha! Astig di ba? May personal secretary.

Ngayon na-realize ko na sana pinagbuti ko yung ganung mga essay writing na yon e di sana mas magaling ako magsulat ngayon. Peru ayos lang ika nga, it's never too late to learn.

Nung una, pampalipas oras lang to. After the wicked IT guys blocked Friendster, Myspace, Facebook and Multiply in the office, I thought blogging would be another way for me to cure boredom.

Well, it actually started like "Oh, everyone else is doing it. And they're enjoying it, so maybe I should do it too." One of these people that I personally know is Glenn/Gavin/Maldito. Just a bit of information guys, Maldito and I are officemates. Haha! He keeps telling me not to disclose that information, perhaps he fears that it might unfold the "mystery" of him as an anonymous blogger. heheh. Sorry Gavin, I just did. Don't worry, I know your readers will love you even more. Peace bai! ;)

Seriously, I thought, it would be worth it to share thoughts with some of the articulate digital self publishers known as "bloggers." Little did I know it would turn into a hobby. Little did I know that I'd gain friends and get a little "emotionally-attached" with them. Haha.. Yeah mushy! I know. But seriously guys, I appreciate all the kindness you have shown me here in the blogosphere.
Now I've just realized, I blog because I want to stay connected with you all - the most wonderful people in this virtual world.

This is my 21st entry and I would like to take this opportunity to say "I thank you guys!" for all your comments on my posts, they serve like proof that you, veteran and non-veteran bloggers (like me), acknowledge my existence in this virtual world. And that means a lot to me already. I would like to make a special mention of the following bloggers who has touched the softest part of my.... uhhm heart.

  • Rye aka FlaminDevil. For all your inspiring posts. For being a very friendly blogger and for always giving positive comments on my entries. You have no idea how much your entries made me jealous of your talent. Your writing style seems simple yet creative, very well-written and sincere. No wonder why the number of your readers are increasing day by day. ;)

  • Kris the ex-PROSETITUTE, but now known as theCHAOSPilot. For being one of the first commenter on my first entry. His superb way of writing makes me envious, haha, how I wish I could write that well.
  • Dencios. Another cool guy, and not to mention, gwapong-gwapong blogger (again, like me.. hehe) who never fail to give uplifting comments. I really appreciate that.
  • Winkie. Have I told you, I love your style of writing? Parang casual lang peru effective. Like, it shows your bubbly spirit and the effect to me is refreshing. Thank you talaga.
Teka, nakakapagod mambola... hehe. At dahil I'm running out of time, kasi nasa internet shop lang ako dahil rest day ko ngayon, mamadaliin ko na to. Naputulan kasi ako ng internet sa bahay.

I sincerely thank you guys for being so cool in an awesome way:
Azul, Abrel, Bluguy, Cindy, Desza, Jaja, Kokoi, Kris Jasper, Lion Heart, Mac, Marah, Markey, Payatot, Ron Turon, Ron (thecoffinrock), Vanvan, Wilfred. Sa lahat ng nasa Friendslist/Bloglist ko. heheh. Pasensya na sa hindi na-mention hehe.

Marami pa akong kakaining bigas, and I'm more than willing to learn not only to eat but to cook as well.

PS: I wish we could meet someday.

Friday, February 20, 2009

Gross Behavior

It has been all over the news. On TV, on the Internet, on printed newspapers and has been the talk of the town (heheh, medyo exaj!). Singer superstar Rihanna has been allegedly beaten up by singer boyfriend Chris Brown. (Gustong-gusto ko 'tong couple na'to kaya medyo affected talaga ako sa nangyari.. tsk. tsk!)

So, we can't help but ask, what drives a man to be so cruel to the woman he claims to love?

Source: MSN news

A photo that appears to be Rihanna's face with bruises, scratches and swelling from an attack allegedly at the hands of boyfriend Chris Brown was posted Thursday night by the celebrity Web site TMZ.

The close-up image shows a welt above each of the woman's eyebrows, marks on her cheek and around her lips, and general swelling. TMZ did not say how it obtained the photo, when it was taken or by whom.

Brown was arrested Feb. 8 and booked on suspicion of making felony criminal threats to a woman that authorities have not publicly identified. A person familiar with the situation, who was not authorized to speak publicly on the matter and requested anonymity, confirmed that the woman was Rihanna, whose real name is Robyn Fenty.
- MSN news

This news reminds me of someone I know who used to be beaten up by her husband. Her name was Roxanne, a distant relative. Her husband is charming, popular and well-praised for his good deeds in the community. But there is a dark side to Roxanne's mate, one that even their close friends do not see. Roxanne confessed, "At home, he's a monster. He gets intensely jealous easily."

The problem began after they'd been married for just a few weeks. "My brothers and my mother visited us, and I had such a good time talking and laughing with them. But when they left, my husband violently threw me onto the sofa, wild with rage. I couldn't believe what was happening."

Sadly, that was just the beginning of Roxanne's agony, for over the years, she has been battered repeatedly. The abuse seems to follow a predictable cycle. Her husband beats her, then he apologizes profusely and promises never to do it again. His conduct improves—at least for a while. Then the nightmare starts all over. "I keep thinking that maybe this time he'll change," Roxanne says. Even when she runs away, she always goes back to him.


So, how do you know if your soon-to-be partner will eventually become a batterer? I was reading an old release of a magazine called Awake! regarding family matters and there’s this certain section that talks about the common causes of domestic violence. Ladies, I suggest that you pay attention to the following paragraphs.. ;)

The Family Connection

Not surprisingly, a number of physically abusive men were themselves raised in abusive families. "As babies and young children, they grew up in hostile surroundings where emotional and physical violence were 'normal.'" According to one expert, a male who is raised in such an environment "can absorb his father's contempt for women very early in life. The boy learns that a man must always be in control of women and that the way to get that control is to scare them, hurt them, and demean them. At the same time, he learns that the one sure way to get his father's approval is to behave as his father does."

Of course, the family environment does not excuse a man's battering, but it may help to explain where the seeds of a violent temperament were sown.

Alcoholism and Drugs

Many male batterers also abuse alcohol and other drugs, it's easy to conclude that these substances may cause domestic violence. Substance abuse increases the risk for and lethality of the violence. However, one thing for sure, being under the influence of drugs or alcohol are not excuses for a batterer's behavior or for his failure to take responsibility for his behavior.


Many batterers deny responsibility for their actions, claiming that their wives provoke them. Even some friends of the family may buy into the idea that the wife is difficult to deal with, so no wonder that her husband loses control now and then. But this amounts to blaming the victim and justifying the aggressor. Really, battered wives often make extraordinary efforts to pacify their husbands. Besides, beating one's partner is never justified under any circumstances. The book The Batterer—A Psychological Profile states: "Men who are sent by the courts to treatment for wife assault are addicted to violence. They use it as a release from anger and depression, a way to take control and resolve conflicts, and a tension reducer. . . . Often, they can't even acknowledge their role or take the problem seriously."

Bottom line is, there is no excuse for a batterer to beat someone especially if that someone is the one he claims to love. That is just a very gross behavior. Take care everyone!

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Ten Random Things About Me

I was tagged by Rye aka Flamindevil to list Ten Random Things About Me and it's okay kasi wala pa naman akong na-iisip na topic for a new entry. As usual, the rule is to list down ten information about yourself, nine of them are facts and one is a LIE. So feel free to make a guess guys. ;)

Ok, so without further ado, here it goes...

10 Random Things About Me

1. I was born in Valenzuela City, Metro Manila. My mom used to work as secretary at a local law firm. She quit her job because his employer attempted to harass her and so we moved back to Cebu when I was 5.

2. I used to be a mommy's boy when I was younger. But as I was growing up, we've had conflicts which created a slight gap between us. But that does not alter the fact that I love my mom so much.

3. I am a 23-year old male virgin. No need to hurry. I am saving it for the right person and it’s gonna happen at the right time.

4. I stand 5 feet and 5.5 inches. I’ve always been unhappy with my height and I am so obsessed of gaining more height that I even bought 2 bottles of Cherifer PGM 2 months ago. Even at 23, I am still taking it daily. LOLz.

5. I have a mild thoracic dextroscoliosis 25 degrees. My back looks a little uneven but no, I’m not a hunchback. For more information about scoliosis. Visit and enter “scoliosis”. Hehe. ;p

6. I used to go to a gym as advised by my doctor. I had a physical therapist who used to guide me with the exercises. Kaso nung nalaman kong bakla sya, nag-quit ako kasi di ko sya type.. haha.. Nakakatakot sya kasi he was huge!! 5'11 ata yun!Medyo Chubby!

7. I’ve had 3 official girlfriends. None of those relationships lasted 4 months.

8.When I was in Grade 6, I thought I was infatuated with our PE teacher!! He was very good at basketball. Now, I've realized it was just plain admiration. Perhaps I was just looking up to him like a father figure or older brother.

9. One of the movies that made me cry in a movie house was Steven Spielberg's Artificial Intelligence (2001). The movie was like a story of a boy robot. It's like a modern Pinocchio movie (as if di nyo napanood, hehe). The fact that he went that far but was not able to accomplish his goal, that is, to look for the blue fairy who can make him a real boy, and that scene wherein his "mom" abandoned him in the woods because they thought he might hurt their real son, oh it's just so heart-breaking.

Watch the Movie Here:

10. Lastly, my favorite music artists are Jason Mraz and Michael Buble.

Wheow! Finally, I'm done with this obligatory post. ;)
And I would like to know more about the following bloggers, hence, you guys are TAGGED.

JAJA aka Bella

P.S: No Pressure guys, Take your time. Please, don't hate me. Peace! =)

Sunday, February 15, 2009

Mahal ko si DOTA

Napag-isip isip ko na marahil masyadong malungkot ang tema ng aking huling dalawang blogpost at ayokong makahawa o magdulot ng malungkot na atmospera sa blogosphere. Paumanhin po kung ganun man. At paumanhin po kung mali-mali ang aking Tagalog ngayon. Gusto ko lang talaga subukan mag-post ng purong Tagalog lang, ng maiba naman. Bisaya po talaga ako. ;)

Nais ko pong ibahagi ang isang nakakatawang e-mail na natanggap ko mula sa isang kaibigan. Hindi po sya blogger kaya wala akong link na mailalagay.

Dahil ako po ay mahilig din sa larong DOTA, na-tuwa talaga ako ng matanggap ko ito.


si DOTA isa lang sa mundo,
GF napakarami niyan.
si GF iiwan ka din niyan,
si DOTA hindi.
si GF nagagalit pagnagdodota ka,
si DOTA hindi nagagalit pag nagGF ka.
si DOTA P20 lang masaya na,
si GF baka P200 hindi pa masaya.
pagnakakakita ka ng ibang Hero hndi nagagalit si DOTA,
pero pagnakakakita ka ng ibang babae nagagalit si GF.
si GF pag iniwan mo mahirap na balikan,
si DOTA pag iniwan mo, handa ka parin tanggapin.
Ano mas gusto mo DOTA o GF?
mag-isip ka na....

GIRLFRIEND: Bakit ang DOTA ba maroromansa ka?
DOTA: Bakit mabibigyan ka ba ng gf ng
tripleng sarap pag naka triple kill ka?
GIRLFRIEND: Bakit ang Dota ba kayang kompletuhin ang pagkatao ng isang lalake?
DOTA: Bakit kaya ba ng babae gawing GODLIKE ang isang lalake?

BUT they have 1 thing in common:
Yun ay lagi silang anjan pag me problema ka. Pag natalo ka sa pustahan sa dota cno magpapasaya sau GF dba? Pag nagkaproblema ka naman sa GF cno magpapasaya sau DOTA dba?


Kaya sa lahat ng girls jan, feel free to comment. Peru wag nyo po ako awayin ha. Hindi po ako nagsulat nyan. ;)

Para sa mga hindi pa nakaka-alam kong ano ang DOTA ito po ay isang multi-player computer game. For more information, please click here:

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Waiting Game

“Is this seat taken?”
You asked while pointing to the seat in my front.
“Yes, but this one is not.”
I replied while pointing to the seat at my left.
I smiled. You smiled back.
It was the most beautiful smile I’ve ever seen.
When I was hungry, you offered your snacks.
In you, I found a friend.
When I missed Flame of Recca, you were there to give me a recap.
In you, I found my best friend.

“Our litle conversation
are turning into little sweet sensation
and they're only getting sweeter everytime…”
- Fallin by Janno Gibbs

Just when I thought we were falling,
Come to think of it, You've left me hanging..
Perhaps I was at fault when I wanted more
from you but you can only give so little.

“There is hardly any activity, any enterprise,
which is started with such tremendous hopes
and expectations, and yet, which fails
so regularly, as love.”

My biggest mistake was when I tried to cross the line.
Thinking that you were feeling the same way too.
Now, the line has grown into a wall.
A wall strengthened by distance and time.
A wall that tells me to wait for you.
And so I am pushing my luck,
So Baby I will wait for you.

Wait For You - Elliot Yamin
“I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you and I'm wishing you would come back through my door
Oh, why did you have to go?
You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,

Girl you could have stayed but you wouldn't give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more than I can stand
Oh, and all my tears they
Keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie
This is not how you want it to be

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I'll wait for you

Been a long time since you called me
How could you forget about me
You gotta be feeling crazy
Oh, how can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is and it just ain't like that
Oh, why can't you look at me
You're still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.

Baby why can't we just
Just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance
I can love you right
But you're telling me it won't be enough

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I'll wait for you

But this waiting game is killing me.
Cuz I’ve been waiting for years.
It’s been years that I long for your affection.
And I don’t know how long will I be waiting.

I like dead-end signs.
They at least have the decency
of telling you that you are
going nowhere.

Sunday, February 8, 2009

Puppy Love

If smart people usually have stupid hearts, well, with the rate that my stupid heart is going, I must be a freaking genius!

That statement above that I’ve read from Flamindevil’s post, Question Everything has really made a hell of an impact to me. Why? Because I believe I’ve been cursed to live with a stupid and stubborn heart. And it reminds me of my puppy love. Might sound cheesy but it's true.

With the number of times I’ve had my heart broken, I can’t help but ask myself, “Am I intellectually gifted?” My mom would probably say “YES!” without a doubt. Why of course, she’s my mom. I’m her only son and she loves me.

Wayback in my elementary years, I may not be the brightest kid in class, but I never fail to be included in the top 10. When I was in grade 1, I got recognized as the No. 1 Most Outstanding Student with all other minor awards. Halos di magkasya ang dibdib ko to accommodate ribbons and medals. Haha! Yabang ba? Yaan nyo na po. Minsan lang to.

I graduated in elementary with honors and I belonged to the top 10. Ako yung tipo ng estudyante na hindi nag-aaral unless there’s an exam the following day. Kaya ayun, hindi ako makapasok-pasok sa top 5. Hanggang sa gumradweyt ako ng High School, based on the ranking, top 6th of the graduating class daw ako. That’s why, I have doubts on whether I am smart or not.

Ngunit kung pagbabasehan natin ang pangungusap sa ibabaw, then I must be very smart or intellectually-gifted. LOLs!! Cuz I believe I have a very stupid heart.

Puppy Love

When I was in second year hi-school, I fell in love with my seatmate. Her name was Lynette*. She had a very cute smile. Her eyes were tantalizing. Yung parang nasa anime. We share a lot of things in common, that’s why I easily fell for her. We were both raised with a single mom. Palagi kaming magkasama. Ako taga-gawa ng assignments. Taga-bitbit ng bag. Taga-gawa ng Art projects. She calls me “bessy”. I used to call her “buddy”.

We both loved “Flame of Recca”, a Japanese animated show in which Recca, the protagonist, claims to be a ninja and promised to serve and protect her princess all the time. Everyday we enthusiastically talk about what happened to Recca and her princess.

One time sabi niya, “Mon kamukha mo si Recca.”
“Ikaw nga din eh, kamukha mo yung prinsesa.”
“Really? Owwss!! Talaga?” Sabi ko naman, “Oo talaga!”

She gave me a wide smile and she had the most beautiful smile my eyes had ever seen.
And her lips were pink. I thought that was enough for an invitation so I kissed her. But she pushed me away. Then she stood up and walked away. Leaving me confused and broken..

That night I texted her telling her I was in love with her. She replied and told me to wait because her parents didn’t want her to have a boyfriend at that time. So I waited, and waited… and until my heart has gone tired. But since there never was a closure or she never told me about until when should I keep waiting. Maybe, I'm up until now, my heart is still waiting. For how long? I don’t know…

One day, she texted me this quotes:

We have two eyes and just one tongue, which means we need to look twice and talk once… We have two ears and just one mouth, so we need to listen more than we talk…We have two hands and one stomach, so we need to work twice as much as we eat… We have two major brain parts and one heart, so we can think twice and love only one. Isn’t it amazing that our body parts remind us on how to live right?

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