Puppy Love

If smart people usually have stupid hearts, well, with the rate that my stupid heart is going, I must be a freaking genius!

That statement above that I’ve read from Flamindevil’s post, Question Everything has really made a hell of an impact to me. Why? Because I believe I’ve been cursed to live with a stupid and stubborn heart. And it reminds me of my puppy love. Might sound cheesy but it's true.

With the number of times I’ve had my heart broken, I can’t help but ask myself, “Am I intellectually gifted?” My mom would probably say “YES!” without a doubt. Why of course, she’s my mom. I’m her only son and she loves me.

Wayback in my elementary years, I may not be the brightest kid in class, but I never fail to be included in the top 10. When I was in grade 1, I got recognized as the No. 1 Most Outstanding Student with all other minor awards. Halos di magkasya ang dibdib ko to accommodate ribbons and medals. Haha! Yabang ba? Yaan nyo na po. Minsan lang to.



I graduated in elementary with honors and I belonged to the top 10. Ako yung tipo ng estudyante na hindi nag-aaral unless there’s an exam the following day. Kaya ayun, hindi ako makapasok-pasok sa top 5. Hanggang sa gumradweyt ako ng High School, based on the ranking, top 6th of the graduating class daw ako. That’s why, I have doubts on whether I am smart or not.

Ngunit kung pagbabasehan natin ang pangungusap sa ibabaw, then I must be very smart or intellectually-gifted. LOLs!! Cuz I believe I have a very stupid heart.

Puppy Love

When I was in second year hi-school, I fell in love with my seatmate. Her name was Lynette*. She had a very cute smile. Her eyes were tantalizing. Yung parang nasa anime. We share a lot of things in common, that’s why I easily fell for her. We were both raised with a single mom. Palagi kaming magkasama. Ako taga-gawa ng assignments. Taga-bitbit ng bag. Taga-gawa ng Art projects. She calls me “bessy”. I used to call her “buddy”.

We both loved “Flame of Recca”, a Japanese animated show in which Recca, the protagonist, claims to be a ninja and promised to serve and protect her princess all the time. Everyday we enthusiastically talk about what happened to Recca and her princess.

One time sabi niya, “Mon kamukha mo si Recca.”
“Ikaw nga din eh, kamukha mo yung prinsesa.”
“Really? Owwss!! Talaga?” Sabi ko naman, “Oo talaga!”

She gave me a wide smile and she had the most beautiful smile my eyes had ever seen.
And her lips were pink. I thought that was enough for an invitation so I kissed her. But she pushed me away. Then she stood up and walked away. Leaving me confused and broken..

That night I texted her telling her I was in love with her. She replied and told me to wait because her parents didn’t want her to have a boyfriend at that time. So I waited, and waited… and until my heart has gone tired. But since there never was a closure or she never told me about until when should I keep waiting. Maybe, I'm up until now, my heart is still waiting. For how long? I don’t know…

One day, she texted me this quotes:

We have two eyes and just one tongue, which means we need to look twice and talk once… We have two ears and just one mouth, so we need to listen more than we talk…We have two hands and one stomach, so we need to work twice as much as we eat… We have two major brain parts and one heart, so we can think twice and love only one. Isn’t it amazing that our body parts remind us on how to live right?